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my first time….

hi… im back.. i’m missed my blogsite.

 

now, i’m writing my very first experience working in a bpo company and my first time also working in a night shift.  in my nine-years of working, i felt fresh working in a night time schedule. well, that’s what they say “let’s make the night day!!”  hahaha….

before, i was really eager to work in a bpo company coz i wanna try working in a graveyard time.  and finally, for almost 3years of waiting, i got it.  and honestly, i felt anew, fresh. tonight is my first day of working in a night time sked.  i did not feel sleepy in my first four hours, but when 3am came, oh god…. i can’t help it, i really want to close my eyes. i wanna sleep. but can’t.

but it’s alright, i’m enjoying it anyways.  i just wish that this would be sked forever.. hehehe… (though i know it’s impossible).

till here, it’s almost time for my clock out. thank god, i did not fell asleep.

yehey!!!! success….  :D

BULLSHIT

i lost my phone. my n6300 phone. bullshit.. i haven’t finish paying it. somebody from a public transport took my phone. partly, my mistake, i wasn’t aware that there is eyeing on me. well, it’s the prize i take for being stupid for that day.

i had a very bad luck today’s month. i’ve got some problems with my family, with financial matters, and added with these. BULLSHIT..

i really cried when i confide to my dad. i just can’t help it, i worked hard for that phone, it’s my first device that i acquire using my own money, and it’s embarrassing, very disappointing.

tough job

The month of October for me is not quite good.  i may have a new job but i guess i overdo my work.  i made some mistakes that makes my brain cells rumbling and working overtime on how to mend the mistakes. 

And just i not yet done on the mistakes i’ve mentioned, my daughter admitted to the hospital and lived there for 3days.  Then, worst of all, i lost nearly eight thousand pesos, take note, that nearly eight thousand is not mine.  so frustrating that i asked God, is what he had planned for me on October?! Or maybe until December???  it’s just so very a bad timing, that my dad decided to live on his own, (though he still lives with us), but it’s just like he doesn’t live anymore with us.  he stopped supporting the needs in our home.  i had nothing to do with it, it’s his decision.  so, i don’t have a choice but to raise my daughter and my mom.  So very bad timing, that it all happened two days after my daughter checkd out of the hospital. 

All of a sudden, my savings were gone.  As in GONE..  those should have spent for my daughter’s 3rd birthday on December.  Supposedly, i was planning to have a party at Jollibee, since my daughter loves jollibee.  well, i guess it will never happen anymore. 

im already broke.  i don’t have anymore money to spend for it.  but i realized that it’s not important.  i still got a better option in my mind.  and i will do my very best to make it exciting. 

bizzare

ooh!!! im n a world of bizzare right now.  i just encountered problem that until now im n a world of darkness on how to survive this.  i still not over in thinking how to resolve this.  well, slightly it is half-resolve and still waiting when it can be fully resolved.  i just wish and really really hoping this would be over not later than the end of June, this year of course. 

honestly, i can’t bear it na.  it’s so frustating that i cannot do something smooth to clear this out.  i don’t know, but i guess my dad is really decided that he’ll put this up to court.  hay, so desperate that i brag people with this mistake just because of my stupidity.  so stupid of me… so stupid..

now, while this is still hanging, i have to suffer for the consequences of my stupidity.  i should have more patience for this because my mom and my dad won’t stop bad-mouthing me until this will be settled. oh well, even if this will be over this is already recorded in thier mind that they will keep on reminding me over and over. 

oh god!!! today’s part of my life is just so unfair.  i still haven’t done thinking of how to get a life with a penniless, and now, here i am, just entered a new situation that i don’t know how to mend.   

for those who can read this, pls pray for me.  help me to ask god to put some generosity or even a little generosity for those people who are in proper seats to make my complaints be resolve as soon as possible.  we badly needed our credit line to be back immediately for the needs of my dad.

Exhausting…but SUCCESS!!!

Last January 27, 2007 (saturday) we celebrated our annual fiesta.  Maybe for you it’s not a big deal, but for me, it was.  Why? Because i spearheaded the whole event to make our fiesta be festive.  It’s tiring but it’s my achievement.  Let me describe to you what happened during our celebration.

By November last year, I already encountered three major problems. My first problem is our organizational president suddenly resigned from her post. And my main problem is our organization financial status, and my big problem, there is nobody wants to help me.  Suddenly by the mid-year of 2006 i received rumors that our organizational president resigned from her post.  I thought maybe it’s not true, but then when the ber-month came, there is no president care to plan for our upcoming fiesta.  And so, i did the initiative.  I called my co-officers and the members for a meeting, to start a plan for our fiesta.  But, still the president "no-show" in the meeting.  That night, i concluded so the rumors are true.  She’s giving up his post.  Well, whatever her reasons are, I DON’T CARE.  And so, we planned a program to make our celebration merry.  Of course, i headed the said meeting, mind you i am only the treasurer of the organization.  And we had a planned, but it didn’t started right away because our (my) second problem is the organization financial status.  Suppossedly we should have just enough to implement a big event but our "resigned president" keep on withdrawing cash slowly.  Apparently, we had less than one thousand pesos in our account.  Good thing, my mom donated just enough amount to add to our less than one thousand pesos to start implementing our plans. 

We’re planning to organize a "Little Prince and Princess of Palsy side 2007".  This is our main program to our fiesta celebration.  We agreed to make it a money contest for the reason to raise funds for our chapel.  The Sinulog day comes, we had our counting of ballot boxes.  From then, the chapel raised around not less than five thousand pesos, plus we had a solicitations, all-in-all we raised more or less eleven thousand pesos (good for us).   With this amount i started to planned for the whole big event.

And the coronation night has come.  At the start of the night, i was a little bit upset because the person that i assigned for some preparations hasn’t done their part.  So, i did all the preparation.  I have to cleaned first the sorroundings, i have to prepare the set-up for the whole area, the set-up for the stage, i gathered and arranged the candidates and most of all i do the HOSTING.  I even carried a big table and chairs for the guests, grrrrr….  With this, i asked the help of my father and an old friend to entertain our guest.  Good thing, they nodded.

When the program started, well, at first it didn’t go well, but then it was covered by a little comedy scoop made by one of the candidates.  One candidate for Little Princess, sitted in her chair fronting the audience and the guest, suddenly raised and spread her legs showing her white panty and then abruptly she scratched her middle (u know what i mean).  And so the audience reaction, laughing.  But they don’t mind it because the candidates (our candidates) ages are 4yrs to 7yrs old.  As the program continues, all goes well.  And after the program, i had to cleaned the mess, well actually it’s not really a mess.  I just have to return back the tables and chairs that i borrowed from one of my neighborhood.  And this time, good thing, the person that i assigned for the set-up showed up and he carried the tables and chairs.  After the cleaning, i had to go home for awhile to change my sandals, i’ve been complaining having a pain in my foot wearing 3inches sandals.  Then i go back to the chapel with a long-neck bottle of Tanduay for the barangay tanod in my hands.   I had to watch-over the funds from the disco paid by those people wants to dance.  At around 2:30am, after i get the proceeds i hurriedly went home to rest.  In the morning  i woke up early coz i was assigned to read the 1st or 2nd reading for our sponsored mass.  But unfortunately, i didn’t make it.  But at least i made it to attend the mass despite of my headache due to being drunked that coronation night.

With this big event that i headed, i learned that i should not rely on people whose giving false hope.  Also i learned that in everything we do we should planned it carefully.   Though we cannot avoid some hassles but at least we should try to find alternatives.  Based on my experiences, even though i did all the work, of course with the help of my friends, Marjorie and Ruby (joining the three of us… full force) i did the celebration WELL DONE.

Thank you for those people who wholeheartedly giving me assistance to make our celebration a success.  Gelli who voluntarily decorating our chapel, decorating the stage and she even volunteered to assist me during the program (miraculously).  "For the boys" who helped to construct the stage and the barangay tanod for watching overnight our disco. My dad and Tatay Erning, even though they are not part of the organization anymore, they still extend there arms to help me in supervising the whole event. And most of all, thanks to our patron saint Sñr. Sto. Niño for providing me these people and for never leaving my side.

Now, i was thinking, I have started my 2007 such a great achievement.  I hope this won’t be the last. 

Looking back

January 1, 2007 i was kinda busy cleaning some mess brought by the new year celebration last night.  After cleaning up myself also, i sit on our store (just a li’l store) to watch over it, i suddenly thinking of what my life had last year (specifically year 2006).

My first month of the year 2006 is quiet bad.  i was expecting to be going to butuan and surigao (for my living) that month, i was happy at that time because i had a new (additional) employer.  i was thinking that it can add to my income for having an additional supplier, but it’s so frustating that i wasn’t able to go that place because of simply reason: i am financially unstable.  my commission from my first employer has not been released because of my delinquent client (bounced checks).  but i am still lucky because my second employer (good thing) though i had this delinquent client–bounced checks, he still gives me my commission, but of course with a deduction. but it’s ok, at least i still have money to buy milk for my baby.

I was thinking that maybe i should do it by next month considering that i’m a little busy because of our fiesta (we’re celebrating fiesta right after the sinulog).  but then, when the next month came, still i cannot go out of town because again the reason: i am financially unstable. and so this reason goes on and on until the year ended (hehehe).  I haven’t gone to butuan and surigao at all.

Once in awhile, while spending time with my baby and my mom, i had a little time of bonding with my bestfriend and my new found friend.  My bestfriend Lyra resigned from her previous job and so she discovered problems. Like financial problem and also love problem.  i was with her during that crucial time of hers, until she lands a new job.  She’s now in call center (good for her).   I have a new found friend, her name is Riche.  She is the daughter of one of my client in surigao.  She went here in Cebu to look for a job while waiting for her application for Taiwan.  Unlike my bestfriend, she didn’t get a job.  She’s now in Taiwan.  I was with Richel when i learned to find a job.  I learned that it’s not that easy to find a job.  I experienced hardships in facing some interviews and in taking exams.  but mind you, my only problem when it comes to interviews, is that i don’t have any business attire (hehehe).  But that’s it, until the year ends, i wasn’t able to land a job (poor me).

Aside from my friends, i also had bonding with my relatives in Manila.  At last, i’ve seen my cousin Yzel in person because i’ve known her thru stories from my sis and Kuya Ariel (her brother).  She went to Cebu for a vacation with her mom, my aunt Thelma.  We went to my mom’s relative hometown Tuburan for our post-summer escapade (it’s already July) and also to met our other relatives there.  We had fun, and they enjoy the place very much.  And my baby Lhean enjoyed so much the sorroundings especially the beach.  It’s her first beach outing anyway!!!

Then suddenly sometime in August, i was on my way to colon to buy a birthday present, because i received a call from my previous employer, he’s inviting me for a salo-salo to his office (good thing he still remembers me) when my phone rang, it’s my Ate Shiela, telling me go home ASAP because my mom had an accident.  She slide from our CR and so she got a broken pelvic.  By the end of August she got operated–major operation.  The doctor implanted a stainless (see the price 18,000) to her pelvic so she can walk again.  She stayed in the hospital for half-a-month, and i stayed in the hospital also for almost half-a-month.  This is because i personally watch over her because she didn’t want anybody else.  well, good for me though, at least my mom loves me that time.

A week after my mom discharged at Chong Hua hospital, i received a call from Sykes Asia (u know Sykes right?!!) inviting me for an english enhancement training for a month.  I took the opportunity for some reasons. first, to have new friends (we’re 20), second, to learn more english of course and thirdly, maybe sykes will hire me (hehehe).  The training is cooperated by Tesda, and is conducted by Celi located at Bigfoot in Ramos.  And so, i got new friends, i quickly added some of them in my friendster (hahaha).  After the training, some of them got a job, in call centers of course but not all are hired by sykes.  And so now, we still keeping in touch thru e-mails.  I missed them so much.. Hay!!! when could we be possibly have our "get-together", they’re all busy naman with their work.

And on the last month of the year 2006, my baby celebrated her birthday merrily.  of course, courtesy of my mom’s money, because i’m penniless in the year 2006.

Eventhough this is my life in the year 2006, i am still happy because i had great bonding with my family and friends.  specially with my mom and my baby..  so it’s not that my bad year after all.

 

having a new fun……

i’ve been offered to join an international english language test, and since it’s free, so i decided not to miss the chance.. tomorrow will be my first day, and during the last two days of orientation i met new friends… and for now, i kinda enjoying it and so excited to my next days with them.  with this training, i just hoping by this time, i can land a job.. a stable one.  if this would not be, well then, guess it’s not really meant for me, and guess have to continue with my basic line of business.  hopefully by next year, i can travel na… to visit my clients…. Visayas and Mindanao… you watch out for me next month… i’ll be visiting you sooner…..

just bit of success!!!!

hayy!!!!! i didn’t know how tard was it to file an income tax return, well, it’s my first time.  good thing i have an old friend, and the most good thing is that until now he recognized me.  i felt just a bit of success, at last i have an annual income tax return.  for last year, i’ve been messed up with this ITR thing.  whenever i wanted to apply for something important (or shall we say something legal) everybody would ask me "do you have an ITR?" Oh my god!!!! how can i get it, i don’t even have a TIN number yet.  how frustrating…..

But now, hayy!!!! praise the lord!!!!! i have an ITR now!!!!

What a success!!!!!

for those who can read this, you might think i’m kinda nerve, but i call this my success because i have been working for almost 5 years now, and just this, just now that i got my tax identification number and i am now taxable legal..

Strength and Courage

It takes strength to be certain, it takes courage to have doubts.

It takes strength to fit in, it takes courage to stand out.

It takes strength to share a friend’s pain, it takes courage to feel your own pain.

It takes strength to hide your own pain, it takes courage to show it and deal with it.

It takes strength to stand guard, it takes courage to let down your guard.

It takes strength to conquer, it takes courage to surrender.

It takes strength to endure abuses, it takes courage to stop them.

It takes strength to stand alone, it takes courage to lean on a friend.

It take strength to love, it takes courage to be loved.

It take strength to survive, it takes courage to live.

To those who can read this:  May you find strength and courage in everything you do, and may your life be filled with friendship and love!!!

Footprints on the Heart

Some people come into our lives and quickly go.

Some people move our souls to dance.

They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom.

Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon.

They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts

And we are never, ever the same.